There is something that clicks in your brain when you are told that your mom is dying. I don’t know how to explain the feeling other than a mixture of adrenaline, fear, despair and a weird calmness that feels more like emptiness. On October 31, of this year my mom found out the pain in her back is cancer. There are 4 tumors total, all small in size but in different areas. She is weak and constantly in pain. I have been camped out at the hospital in-between work. Apparently the cancer is aggressive and it’s stage 4. Why the fuck did this happen? I felt angry and cried for three days straight. The thing is, this cancer is not mine, it is my mom’s and I am already mourning her as if she is gone. This is not the way to be…EVER.
How are you supposed to just sit back and watch the most important person in your life die? I can’t stop researching cancer stats and alternative supplements to help mom. Everything from ImmuneBoost which costs over $120 per bottle, to Mistletoe extract, Cannabis oil and Acupuncture. You can’t just accept what anyone says. You have to always fight no matter what. Mom taught us that. I never take no for an answer. One day at a time.
I told mom that we will get through this, and if God does decide to take her sooner than later, she can go knowing that my sister and I will be okay. Our hearts will never fully heal, but because she raised us so well, our strength and sisterhood will get us through. When I was younger my mom made our Halloween costumes, took us to ballet, paid for my piano lessons, took me to see The Phantom of the Opera for my tenth birthday, and was strict in all the ways we needed. Now she needs us in a way no parent ever thinks they will. We may be down, but we sure as hell are not out. Fuck cancer. Let the fight begin.
I’d love to hear your stories and experiences with this disease…please feel free to email or comment below. xo Jonesie
*Update: On February 25, 2015 My Beloved Mother left this Earth and continued her journey to Heaven. Mom, you made me who I am and words can never explain my love for you. Thank You.
10 thoughts on “The Moment Your Mom is Diagnosed with Cancer”
Wow. It really hurts to read this! I'm so sorry to hear such difficult news. Please know I'm praying for and thinking of you, your mom and your entire family. Sending love and positive thoughts your way.
Thank you so much. Your prayers mean a lot to me and my family. 🙂
My mom was diagnosed with a rare form of breast cancer on Christmas Eve 2001. Stage 4, a 20% chance of surviving five years. It's 2014 and she is still alive. I know there are so many sad, terrible endings to cancel stories, but every now and then miracles do happen.
Wow…your mom is a walking miracle and just reading that literally fills me with tears of hope. Thank you so much for giving me that.
I am sorry for her pain, and yours. You are right. No one deserves to have their body betray them in this way. Praying for strength and courage for her, as well as for you and your sister. [And, yes, I am jealous of the sweater vests.]
Thank you so much Paula…and thanks for the much needed laugh 🙂 Those sweater vests are pretty sweet!
OMG I'm so sorry doll. My mom was diagnosed with uterine cancer back in 2007 and thankfully it was caught early. I know exactly how you feel. When I got that unexpected call from her doctor, my heart stopped, my world stopped spinning and all I could do was cry and think the worse. Thankfully it was early stage and they were able to remove the cancer quickly with a hysterectomy and also removing the surrounding glands. I can't ever thank God enough and her doctor. Hopefully, your mom will be okay. There are so many natural remedies you can also try to boost her immune system. Let me know if you wsnt some and I will text you. Sending you hugs and many many prayers from someone whose been there. 🙂
Hi honey, thank God your mom survived! Thank you so much for your prayers and sentiments, and yes, I'd love for you to text me with natural remedies ❤️
My mom has had cancer three times. My heart and prayers are with you, your sister and your mom. Hold onto your precious moments because eventually we will all go, if not by cancer, by something else, and the memories and experiences and love are all that really matter. xoxo
Hey Chica..have your mom erin some #SOURSOP .. research it.. I wish I was closer to bring it to you Jonsie 🙁